Real Life Wednesday – May 1, 2013

Real Life Wednesday – May 1, 2013

What is it?  Something I just made up honestly.  But I’m thinking it might be a way for me to get a little frustration off my mind even if  I decide not to post this today.

I tried to take apart the crib today.  I know it is too small for Miss F and with family coming to visit I need a place for her to sleep.  Not that there is an ideal place anyways.  (Family do not feel guilty for this if you read this!)  I started.  I couldn’t finish since I could not find the correct tools.  So the crib is now put back together again, except for the front side.  My bed is still a mess from where I pulled off all the clothes that had been on it and I still have to put them away.  I can’t move my dresser because I can’t move the crib.  So since I can’t move the crib I at least have a place to fold the clothes into after the kids go to sleep tonight.  I suppose that is a plus.  But if Miss F is going to sleep in the crib we will have to put the side back on or move it against the bed for the weekend, she moves too much to trust her without a side on that small of a bed (she’s sleeping on a full size since that is the guest bed).

I’m not ready to take apart the crib.  As crazy as that sounds.  Yes the little one hasn’t slept in it for months.  Its what it represents.  Yes you can say if we are going to have another (take a deep breathe Mr. Me) I would be taking it down between now and then if when we ever get to move.  For some reason that step of taking it down is hard.  (And not just because it can be a great place to put the clothes when I’m too tired to fold them or can’t take them into the girls room once they are folded because they are sleeping.)  This is a time that I know society says I should celebrate this time and I just want to curl up in a ball and whimper.  I still see baby pictures or see a small one and my body physically reacts.  I don’t know what this means.  I should be happy with the four that God has blessed us with.  I should be ready to be rid of the baby stuff.  But I’m not.  I am happy with my girls and am so grateful for all of them, but I’m just not sure I’m done with the baby stage yet.  (Yet another example why I’ve lost my marbles.)  :/

Miss L is off the wall today.  Her attitude has not been in a good place for almost the entire day.  So between lack of sleep and her attitude I’m struggling today.  (I got to bed at 1am trying to get hubby ready to leave for work today.)  Miss L and I just had a huge row – me trying not to yell but explain, her cry a lot, but during it she came back to a more logical place.  So I think we are better.  I’m hoping silly to calm yoga will help us as we try to get our minds in a better mindset to sleep.  After all I still have a bed to clean off tonight.

As far as homeschooling…  We at least got some math done today.  New math books arrived for the girls, well Miss L at this stage.  She was so happy that they came today that she sat down and did 3 or was it 4 lessons exclaiming all the while about how she was so happy with this book.  We will see what happens as the days progress.  Miss C is working on carrying, and working ahead in the book because she wants a new skill.  Since the books are so repetitious I’m going to let her.  We can always go back and forth and I have the next set of books here if we decide she is ready to go forward.  I don’t think it is worth finishing every one of these lessons if I can work on some of the basic memorization of facts different ways.

I started pulling apart cards for All About Spelling.  I promised the girls that I would have spelling and reading ready for tomorrow.  So I have a bit of work to do tonight after they go to bed to get them both ready.  One more entire spelling, and both readings.  It might be a late night again.  I want to write a post about setting those up, but that won’t be tonight.

The good part is now that I’ve typed everything out, I’m in a better frame of mind.  Sounds like the kids are.  Now to go get some stuff ready for them so they can go to bed so I can start what I need to so I can.

Praying for a better day tomorrow.  Hope your Wednesday has been a little easier going.

Blessings…