I want to be an eclectic homeschooling mom. That is what I am drawn to. Reality is life makes me tired some days. Trying to fit the normal meals in, playing with the kids sometimes just seems so much, and that is all before adding in all the subjects of homeschooling.
I struggle because I am not organized. Oh I want to be. I SOOOO want to be. I am right now looking between 5 different online planning setups because I’m trying to find something that will work for our style of schooling. What is that? Eclectic. But not in the complete way I want. I want to write everything out in a planner and do everything that I “say”. The reality is that doesn’t happen. And the control part of me feels like I’ve failed if I have to cross something off and try to move it to another day. You can only erase so many times before you rip a hole in the paper.
We are eclectic because some days we can get it all done, the read-aloud, the spelling, reading, math and a little social studies or brief science built in because of the read aloud or questions the girls have asked for the day.
Other days, sigh…
I want to plan unit studies, but I get caught up in the planning the feeling like we can’t start if I don’t have it all planned out. And sometimes that paralyzes me. I’m trying to be better about that.
So yeah. Tonight I’m struggling. I will say the Imperfect Homeschool Blog Hop made me feel a lot better.
On my desk is Miss Rumphius since I pulled that out and decided we would start reading it to go with our FIAR studies. The Giant Science Resource that I have to pull pages out of to do a little something on plants in connection with the book. The lapbook from homeschool share is open on my computer and I’m trying to decide what we will do. Sigh…
And I need to go to bed. It’s 11pm. (Not sure what time the post will say – still have to figure out how fix that.)
What about you? Do you struggle sometimes? Do you use an online planner? Any suggestions besides leaving aside the mommy teacher guilt? My head knows that. I’m trying to work on that one.